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"You bluffed me! I don't like it when people bluff me. It makes me question my perception of reality."
Diane Frolov and Andrew Schneider, Northern Exposure, Cicely, 1992


These are the times that I cherish the most. I guess the meds are really working. The past few months I have been on edge. So much so that I have had the feeling that maybe I should just pick up and leave – just with the clothes on my back and just start walking. I have no destination in mind. I just want to get away from everything that annoys the crap out of me.


I know the typical sayings: “You aren’t the only one” or “There are worse things out there”. Well in my mind and in my world, there are things that push me to the edge. I would go into detail but I assure you or rather, I assure myself, I am working on getting over it.


Since I turned 30 this year, I have had more people ask me my age than I can imagine! Amazing. It’s okay though because most of the time they tend to figure me to be way younger – I definitely appreciate the compliments!


At work, my newest manager (I honestly think she is on the 2 year plan) came up with the fantabulous suggestion that along with our self evaluations that we need to list our 3 personal goals for the New Year. In this instance I surprised myself and I refrained from being sarcastic – however in my case I have been told that it is all in my DELIVERY – so that just means that everything that comes out my mouth will be scrutinized and essentially be seen as me being a smart ass. Anyway here are my (top) 3 personal goals for 2009:


1. Enroll in school to finish getting a degree so I can get the hell out of Dodge
2. Focus on having a more healthy lifestyle (I am not looking to be a size 2 but I am tired of being a size 20)
3. Become financially independent (Living with Mother is proving to be more difficult)


I figured that these goals are more realistic and tangible than the whole getting married and having children dreams that I once fantasized about. In truth I pray that those two will happen but if not I guess I am prepared to become the auntie with all the cats and no husband. (I just made myself laugh).