Rêves

The time is flying by and I am not sure where exactly it is going. These past few days haven’t been good ones for me but I made it through. I get on these roller coasters that seem to have a hold on me. I try to get off and there never seems to be a definitive way off.

I have this crazy dream the other night . . . I am back in high school and it is the end of the school year. I am apparently in the 12th grade and I am supposed to graduate. The thing is I get a letter from my teacher and it says that I have to go to summer school because I failed gym. The kicker is I am 30 years old! Okay, I immediately wake up from that nightmare. I never want to relive my high school years and neither do I want to go back to the excitement of summer school especially at the age of 30.

It seems that was just the beginning of the string of strange dreams these past few evenings.

My fiancé apparently decided that he and I would be just friends. I was apparently okay with it because he and I were on our way to church and he was dressed in Catholic vestments . . . yes, ladies and gentlemen, I ran the man into the priesthood. He was happy and giving hi5s to Fr Trout and Msg. Graham. (All Souls and St. Raymond's Catholic Church - respectively). I decided that it would be a good time to wake up.

Right now my head is filled with most people call dreams. What most people call dreams that I am starting to see is just that - dreams. I know there is a time to grow up and just get going with this thing we call life. I am starting to realize that my time is here. But I don't understand why some dreams cannot become reality. You know, it is hard to let go of dreams that have been with you for so long. But right now it hurts to hold onto something that really isn't there.