When you close your doors, and make darkness within, remember never to say that you are alone, for you are not alone; nay, God is within, and your genius is within. And what need have they of light to see what you are doing?
***Epictetus , Discourses Roman (Greek-born) slave & Stoic philosopher (55 AD - 135 AD)***
These past few days have hurt. It hurt to do what I feel had to be done. Lord only knows if it was right. I pray it was the right thing to do. If I didn't then the anger would be building so much that I would've been engulfed in it. The thing is that it is not anger I am feeling, it is sadness. This sadness is so deep, it is starting to hurt. Sleeping sucks and when I have to be awake, I'm sleepy or just not connected to this planet.
It seems that I am destined to have a life full of hard, heart aching decisions. There are times when I just feel like ending it all. Yea, yea, yea ... I know I'm not the first and I won't be the last. But I'm not talking about anyone else but me. I feel like crap and I wish for once in my life that things could work in my favor.
A simple life seems like the hardest thing to attain. A husband & children ... nothing fancy ... maybe even an apartment or a house. I want to love and be loved.
***Epictetus , Discourses Roman (Greek-born) slave & Stoic philosopher (55 AD - 135 AD)***
These past few days have hurt. It hurt to do what I feel had to be done. Lord only knows if it was right. I pray it was the right thing to do. If I didn't then the anger would be building so much that I would've been engulfed in it. The thing is that it is not anger I am feeling, it is sadness. This sadness is so deep, it is starting to hurt. Sleeping sucks and when I have to be awake, I'm sleepy or just not connected to this planet.
It seems that I am destined to have a life full of hard, heart aching decisions. There are times when I just feel like ending it all. Yea, yea, yea ... I know I'm not the first and I won't be the last. But I'm not talking about anyone else but me. I feel like crap and I wish for once in my life that things could work in my favor.
A simple life seems like the hardest thing to attain. A husband & children ... nothing fancy ... maybe even an apartment or a house. I want to love and be loved.
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