Laissez-nous emballement

As of recently I have had this feeling that I just want to get up and runaway. I know that will not solve any of my issues or even get rid of them but I just wish I could get away.

However, there are times when I do runaway. I escape to live the lives of the characters in romance novels. I imagine myself sometimes as one the characters and sometimes as a voyeur. (Yes, I do know what it means). Anyway that is the easiest way for me to go about getting away from my life.

….As the sun proceeded to set; Jacqueline looked into Kevin’s brown eyes and knew that she would be his forever. He was everything that she wanted in a man, a life partner, a friend. She just realized exactly what it is that she has been feeling – she loved him! For the first time since Tommy decided that he no longer wanted to be married she found love again. Gently Kevin took her into his arms and it was the best place that she could ever imagine to be....

There isn’t anything in my life that would warrant me having a reality show. I usually keep everything in my life low profile. However I think I have reached a point where there are things that I want but I am coming to terms that there are things that I just can’t and won’t have.

In realizing this I my values have not diminished, however, I now know what it is that I am entitled to. That includes STABILITY. I am learning to be stable on my own. I am making mistakes and learning from them … that is one of those things about making mistakes … you LEARN from them.

So while I dream to runaway, I always know that there is a point that I will have to return back to my reality. It’s okay, just as long as I have the option to RUNAWAY.