I am so scared but I am trying to keep it under wraps. I have always been the “strong” one and now I here I am. I hate not knowing. I also hate the anticipation of waiting for information.
For everything there is a season,
and a time for every matter under heaven:
a time to be born,
and a time to die;
a time to plant,
and a time to pluck up what is planted;
a time to kill,
and a time to heal;
a time to break down,
and a time to build up;
a time to weep,
and a time to laugh;
a time to mourn,
and a time to dance;
a time to throw away stones,
and a time to gather stones together;
a time to embrace,
and a time to refrain from embracing;
a time to seek,
and a time to lose;
a time to keep,
and a time to throw away;
a time to tear,
and a time to sew;
a time to keep silence,
and a time to speak;
a time to love,
and a time to hate;
a time for war,
and a time for peace.
So I decided that there are a few things that I want to accomplish this year . . .
1. I want to become a healthier Daphney
2. I want to finish getting my degree
3. I just want to find my happy place
Diagnostic testing is a bit scary. Who the hell came up with that bright idea? Uterine Biopsy to be exact – DON’T BELIEVE THEM WHEN THEY SAY JUST TAKE 2 MOTRINS!!!
Understanding and knowing when to leave it alone
This is a time when I am not sure when to leave it and when to attack it. I am scared. The idea of not knowing is what is freaking me out. I have come to accept that my “business” will be available for viewing but that chunk of time that I will be missing … that is scary.
I am thinking positive. It will be ok. At least that is what everyone keeps telling me.
